Sunday, July 26, 2009


The last two days I've been depressed. I think it is related to my hormones. But when I get depressed, I want to eat so I will feel better. Eating to me can fix anything. Lonely-eat. Bored-eat. Sick-eat. Tired-eat. Angry-eat. Sad-eat. But it is a short term fix, and I need more and more food to do the same thing. I just don't want to do anything when I am depressed, and then I feel guilty because I am not being productive. I have so much to do and am not getting anything done. Yesterday, I procrastinated all day about exercising. I never went to the gym, but I did walk on my treadmill for 50 minutes. Today I went to the gym after not doing anything all day. Then I came home and still don't want to do anything. I just need to be careful because if I continue not to get things done, I will use it as an excuse to binge. I use to bribe myself with food all the time in order to do things I didn't want to. I can't do that anymore!


  1. It is such a hard situation. When you are depressed you don't want to do anything, but doing things helps. It is so difficult to work through that. I also use food to deal with EVERYTHING but I am trying to break the habit.

    Well done on getting yourself to the gym. That is a huge accomplishment. All I can suggest now is to try and stay busy. Even if you are sitting down, do you do any crafts or anything that will keep your hands and mind busy?

    Best of luck getting through this difficult time and I hope the depression phase passes quickly.

  2. Thanks for your comment! I needlepoint! I'm making a belt. The big think for me is to just accept my feelings, because they pass. I don't need to eat over them.