I just got back from spending a week at my sister's. I don't really have a good plan for exercising and eating away from home. At home, I have a routine and plenty of healthy foods if I get hungry. I plan my activities around my meals and exercise. And at home, I go to the gym or get on my treadmill to exercise. So while I was away, I didn't exercised. I did eat the same breakfast, because it is easy for me to bring-just cereal with Rice Dream. But other times I just ate whatever was prepared, and when I felt hungry, I ate one of the healthy snacks I brought.
There was only one time that I really thought for a moment I was going to take that first compulsive bite. It was when I went into Dunkin Donuts so my nieces could get a donut. I really, really wanted to get, not one, but many donuts. (I would describe for you the donuts that I wanted, but I don't want to go there.) I do think that when I am eating right there is a certain momentum that I have to overcome to start binging again. It requires not just a thought, but a thought and an action!! Just like when I am binging, I can't just start eating right. I first have to stop the momentum of what is similar to a run away train going down a mountain. So now I am home. I'm feeling a little down. I've been eating right for four weeks and get a little depressed I am still fat!! That may be the Biggest Loser effect where they lose 10 lbs. in a week rather than a month!! I realize now that it could be months before I see any rewards for my work, and ONLT if I remain abstinent. I think that is why I am feeling a little down! Plus I don't want to eat my boring diet. I want to eat something exciting!! But I am going to eat it anyway, because if I don't I know I will binge.