Self-hatred

I was reminded tonight of all the self-hatred that comes with binging. It is so easy to forget about how much I hate myself when I'm binging and fat. I've lost over 20 lbs. I don't want to forget how I felt then because I don't want to go back. Today I went into work. I'm teaching at the high school this year. Last time I did well over the summer, I ended up blowing it when school started. I'm trying to be conscious this time. I noticed today when I was busy working I didn't want to stop to eat. That is when I start grabbing candy & fast food. So I made a conscious decision to go home and make dinner. Now I just need to start exercising again.