Monday, September 7, 2009
I started feeling down today, and then I started to get a headache. I realized I might be 2 weeks into my cycle because that is when I seem to get a kind of PMS. I just get depressed and don't want to do anything. At least, I'm not having sweet cravings. I think I'm just going to go to bed early. I'm getting my hormones tested again. I've been taking a compound of estrogen, progesterone, and testosterone. I rub it on the inside of my arm. I think it has really helped in my moods, but I think I need more, so I am getting another blood test. My food has been good and I've been steadily losing weight. I did exercise both Sunday & Monday. Two things I have to work on this week are: exercising during the week and being consistent with discipline in class. Even though I am not looking forward to getting up early tomorrow, I am glad I'm busy because otherwise I think I would be obessessing about my weight especially because I am still over 75 lbs. overweight. I've lost 25 lbs. which is great, but I still have a long way to go and that is hard. I end up focusing on how much I still have to lose rather than how much I've lost. It is great that I have more clothes I can fit into, and I have a choice about what to wear!! I just have to do this-one day at a time! No matter what!!!!